Why do you always stare at me that way?
I just... love the way your hair...well, glows.
What is a relationship like when things like hugs, kissess, sex is not possible?
When the touch can't be felt, and warmth can't be shared?
When i die, will we be together?
But we are together now, and we have been for years.
You know that killing yourself would never work.
I know that. You've told me a hundred and eleven times.
But i am here now, by your side, as i always.
If suicide could bring us together, i would have done so aeons ago. I will live my life as best i could, i've decided that. I will spend each moment of this curse as best i could, for the both of us, until the day i die. Sometimes however, i want more than you by my side, i want you everywhere, i want you closer than close.
You smiled and turned away, if you could blush, you would've you said. If you could feel emotions you would've felt special you said. If you could be loved you would've felt loved as well.
But if you did feel them, would you know it?
Your heart beats so fast, yet your eyes remain so calm.
Your cheeks are so red, yet you say its' not possible.
If i had a heart, would it beat as fast too?
Faster. It would beat faster and faster the closer i move towards you. Faster the moment i touch you, faster the moment i kiss you.
You closed your eyes and tried to imagine it. I knew you couldn't. It would be like imagining what it wold be like to flap wings on my back which i do not have.
I hope that one day...
I hope i'll die soon too.
You could not cry either. You're incapable of producing tears. Until this day i have no idea what that glimmer in your eyes were.
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